The Vision of Isaiah, Marc Chagall, 1968 |
A sermon preached at St Giles-in-the-Fields on Sunday 2nd July 2023 (The Fourth Sunday after Trinity) based on readings from Isaiah 6.1-7 and Acts 6.1-8. The first sermon I preached as Curate of the church.
Holy Holy Holy is the Lord of hosts. So holy
they named him thrice!
Holy
is translated from a Hebrew word which means ‘set apart’ or sacred.
The
threefold refrain of the seraphim in Isaiah’s vision describes a God who is set
apart from the chaos and disorder we have created on earth. Set apart from the
violence, the suffering, the injustice, the poverty the hatred.
God
is greater than all those things.
Isaiah’s
awesome vision revealed the Lord high upon a throne - the train of his robe –
the hem of his garment - filled the temple. The posts of the door shaking at
the cries of the mysterious seraphim.
Isaiah’s
response in the face of this vision? He felt unworthy. A man of unclean
lips, living amongst a people of unclean lips. He wasn’t holy enough for
this.
For
a long time I felt the same.
People
ask when I first realised that I had a calling to Holy orders. It must have
been something I considered at a young age because I remember thinking then
that I was not holy enough to give it further thought. Which is strange now I
know the meaning of holy, as I was very good at setting myself apart in other
ways. Slightly bookish and geeky. Not fitting in with the sporty types. I spent
part of my teenage years having difficulty walking and used a wheelchair - so
was physically set apart - at a different height to those around me.
The
priests I knew didn’t go to the same schools as me, didn’t come from the same
family background as me.
No,
I definitely wasn’t Holy enough.
Would
that I had a copy Edward Gray’s history of this Parish to hand, which contains
this glorious anecdote about a new curate from Henry Richards who was Rector
here from 1892 - about the time my great great grandparents lived
down the road in Neal Street:
“A
few days ago I engaged a curate from a man I thought I could trust, but…
[there’s always a but isn’t there!]…..unfortunately the new-comer was so drunk
at the evening service last night, when he attempted to read the prayers, he
had to be taken out of the church. The grotesque part was that at the time I, the
rector, was supporting the Bishop at a Temperance Meeting at the Mission Hall
close by.”
Well!
I certainly feel a few steps further up the stairway to heaven than that
bloke!
But
perhaps it’s just as well I followed Rita from the choir’s advice – to stick to
tea and cake earlier and nothing stronger!
Eight
years ago I had an experience in church - not a vision like Isaiah, but a
sensation - that knocked me for six.
I
felt as though I had stepped beneath a waterfall of emotion. Surrounded by an
overwhelming sense of belonging, of acceptance, joy, satisfaction and
contentment and all at the same time.
This
was my wake up and smell the coffee moment. I realised that while I have said
and acted in ways that are far from Christ-like - I am not unworthy of God’s
love.
In
the midst of his great vision of God, Isaiah felt small - but he was not
insignificant. God despatched a seraph to touch Isaiah’s lips - to take away
his iniquity - his guilt, his sin. It was only when Isaiah had been set apart
from his worry, his doubt, by God’s mercy and grace, that he heard the Lord
calling.
God
may be holy - set apart - but he is not distant. God is here. He has called us
- a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation - and is calling each of
us now. Calling us to set aside our doubts and worries – our feelings of
unworthiness. Calling us to holiness.
Holy
Holy Holy.
Our
reading from the Acts of the Apostles describes ‘the call of the seven’ to a
ministry we now call that of Deacon. The order of the priesthood to which I was
ordained all of twenty six hours ago!
Deacon
is not a title (as far as we know) given to Stephen, Philip or the others. It’s
a name we have coined to describe what they were called to do. Deacon comes
from a Greek word which means service or to serve.
It’s
a role that came about as a result of what in the business world might be
called gap analysis. Identifying a hole that needs to be filled.
In
this case a practical need. The first followers of Christ agreed to live in
common - pooling their assets, including money and food, sharing it amongst
themselves and with others in great need. One section of this growing community
felt they were being overlooked in the distribution of resources. Perhaps there
were simply too many people for the Apostles to attend to?
So
they called the whole group together to ask them identify seven people best
placed to help fill the gap in personnel.
We
don’t know much about Stephen or Philip or the other five who were called.
Stephen is described as “a man full of faith and of the Holy Ghost”.
Perhaps
so full of faith and the Holy Ghost that he wasn’t full of
himself. Maybe Stephen felt as unworthy as Isaiah in response to being
called?
We
don’t know what he thought. But we do know that others in the community saw
something in him, in Philip and the others. They saw something in them that
would help to fulfil a need in the community.
They
chose well. The number of disciples in Jerusalem multiplied greatly; and a
great company of the priests were obedient to the faith.
So
much of the goodness in my life has come about as the result of other people
seeing something in me. Giving me a chance. I joined a firm of architects and
at a very young age was invited to become a Director. After a lot of hard work
we eventually won design competitions - selected even though we had no track
record of designing similar buildings. But someone saw something in us - gave
us a chance to fulfil our vocation.
I
loved my job - most of the time. But I came to realise I had another
calling.
The
next chapter of which starts today thanks to something Bishop Sarah and Tom our
Rector saw in me. I’ve been given a wonderful opportunity over the next three
years to learn from them and from Chris - from Wil, Edward, Jonathan, Lesley,
Oliver and Cat - from each of you as you explore your calling.
Because
there’s a gap - a hole - somewhere in the world that is shaped like each of us
and is crying out to be filled. And, like Stephen, Philip and the first deacons,
Holey,
Holey, Holey.
is
the Lord of hosts: the whole earth is full of his glory.
Irenaeus
of Lyon said;
“the
glory of God is man fully alive.”
Scripture
and tradition teaches us that until we are united with God our lives are not
full but incomplete. We are unformed substances, in the words of the
psalmist.
There
is no single model - no one size fits all template for discerning our calling -
our vocation - on earth (whether we have one or many). But most Christian
writers agree that it is when our deepest desires - that which makes us who we
truly are - meets the gap - the hole - the need - in the world that is
us-shaped, that we come as close as we can in this life to being fully - wholly
- alive.
The
idea that God is calling us to holiness - that the spirit is leading us to our
true calling - that “us-shaped” hole - flies in the face of modern conceptions
of individual freedom.
The
Prayer Book sets us right. In the Collect - the prayer - for peace in the
office of Morning Prayer, we read that the service God “is perfect freedom.”
The freedom to be who we were truly called to be and to make the world whole. Perfect.
God
is Holy. Set apart but not distant. Calling us right now to set us apart from
our doubts and fears that we are unworthy of his love. Calling us holiness. If
we listen.
His
Spirit is guiding each of us us towards that us-shaped hole - that need - that moment - that only we can
satisfy.
So
that our lives - and that of the whole world - might glorify God.
Holy,
Holey, Wholly.
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