Christ and the Demoniac, Edward Knippers, 2004
A
sermon preached during the Choral Eucharist at St Stephen Walbrook on Thursday
23rd June 2022 (First after Trinity, Year C) based on readings from Luke
8.26-39 and Galatians 3.23-end.
A gospel reading with many different voices - some coming from the same person.
I thought I would listen again to three - and while doing so, ask ‘which one is
me?’
<Voice 1 - A resident of the town>
I
don’t believe people can really change. Sure, you can change your mind about
what you want for dinner - but you can’t change your nature. I’m always
suspicious when people change their allegiance - in sport, in politics.
We
are what we are. We are all born a certain way. This is the way it has always
been and always will be.
When
the swineherds came I thought they were drunk! Rushing around as if they were
possessed. Perhaps he infected them with his madness?
There’s
a reason why that guy isn’t welcome here. Kept under lock and chain. Some say
it’s retribution for something he did once. What goes around, comes around.
Others say his parents were to blame. Madness is in the genes.
He
won’t keep his clothes on. He’s a pervert. He lives in the tombs because he
enjoys it. It’s creepy. He’s locked up for his own good.
I’ve
never actually seen him, although when I’m down there I swear I can feel his
eyes on me. He makes me feel dirty.
But
there’s strength in numbers as they say. So when my neighbour said a crowd was
going to the shore to see what all the fuss was about, I went along too.
They
hadn’t seen him before either but someone who worked as one of his guards
recognised him. This was no imposter.
There
he was, not writhing about or wailing and swearing, but sitting calmly and
fully clothed at the feet of this traveler. He looked - normal.
I
was suspicious. You can dress me up in a smart suit but I’ll still be the same
person underneath!
But
the longer we stood there, the more it seemed as though the madman really had
been healed.
Who
was this traveller who had such power - who could change someone’s nature. If
he can make the deranged normal, what would he do to us? Who would he change
next?
Some
in the crowd began to chant “Go, go, go”. I joined in. It seemed the only thing
to do - there’s strength in numbers.
I
saw the man get up and follow the traveller to the waters edge, but he didn’t
go with him.
Even
now, days later, it seems so unbelievable. But part of me can’t help thinking -
what if it was true?
<Voice 2 - The voices inside the man>
We
knew who he was.
We
were drawn to the shore - attracted as if by a magnet - as he stepped off the
boat.
Pulled
out from behind the tombstones into the the blinding light of the dawn, it’s
sparks bouncing off the surface of the lake. Falling at the feet of the one who
has the power to command the wind and the waves. He came to the shore alone -
his companions remained in the boat. We knew that look in their eyes.
For
years we had been comfortable here. Free to occupy this compliant host, who
surrendered to this legion of negativity.
I
am helplessness.
I
am distrust.
I
am self-loathing.
I
am loneliness.
I
am insecurity.
I
am jealousy.
I
am shame.
I
am misery.
I
am resentment.
I
am pessimism.
I
am terror.
I
am chaos.
I
am decay.
I
am destruction.
I
am uncertainty.
I
am anxiety.
I
am stagnation.
I
am hatred.
I
am bitterness.
I
am worthlessness.
— and each of us with a
hundred more under our command. There’s strength in numbers.
Some
whispering, some screaming, sometimes in battle, sometimes on maneuvers
preparing for the next - but always on the march; the sound of our boots
masking the beat of his own heart.
“What
have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God?” we cried out -
knowing the answer to be nothing.
Just
like us. Nothing. No thing. No substance. An unreality realised
by a perpetual turning away from His truth and life.
Falsehood
built on foundations of clay; supported by an inhuman pyramid of our willing
hosts. Just one of whom can bring down our house of cards.
We
struggled. Pleaded. But knew our time was up.
We
rushed down the slippery slope into the water. Our regression the price of that
man’s evolution.
The
oppressor now the outcast.
<Voice 3 - The healed man>
I
didn’t even see him coming - which was not unusual. My eyes, even when looking
straight ahead, often failed to see what was right under my nose. For years I
had been in limbo - present yet not present in the world.
It
was so calm. There’d been a terrible storm that night. My skin was so sensitive
that even the force of the wind on it was unbearable - but I could do nothing
to find relief - even putting on a cloak was painful. Sometimes, in the heat,
all I could do to release the pain was cry out in agony as I scratched myself.
I just couldn’t stop.
A
man used to come and lock me up with chains in the graveyard and watch over me
from a distance. The shackles were tight and uncomfortable but I found I could
smash them with stones.
But
even when I broke free I ached for release; even when I was alone I was
desperate for solitude; even in the silence I craved peace.
Jesus
is that peace. Jesus is that freedom. But in Jesus I am not alone. Instead of
the deafening voices I now hear a new, harmonious song - a song of love. I have
turned over a new leaf - changed channel. I have been repaired. Re-membered.
Reborn.
I
can’t explain how it happened. Who knows where energy comes from? I just know
it came – in abundance. I now have a life - not just an existence.
I
wanted to go with Jesus in his boat. I didn’t want to leave the one who had
given me so much. I followed him to the shore as the crowd were chanting for
him to leave. But at the water’s edge he turned and told me to go back and tell
my people what God has done for me.
I
could have felt very alone standing on the shore, surrounded by the crowd -
some
of whom I recognised from years back, before I was driven out of the
town. But even though he had waded back to the boat, I felt he was still
with me.
As
the mass of people left for home, one or two ventured closer and began to walk alongside
me. They worked as swineherd. Slowly I told them my story, as Jesus had asked
me to do.
I
will keep remembering, retelling what happened - proclaiming the transforming
love of God and living as a witness that he can do the same for you.
A gospel with many different voices - some coming
from the same person. Which one is yours?
Amen.
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